November 2009
5 posts
been eating.
sorry for the slow posts. i’ve been eating. almost fainted in school last friday; they alerted the nurse; i have to see a nutritionalist. am i admitting to those dumbasses i have anorexia? hell to the n-o. anyways, me and aaron are over and crap. i feel better. dunno why. seeing all time low tomorreh. pretty st0ked. got meet and greet and crap. uhuhuhuh. do me.
or maybe not.
so maybe he doesn’t like me. i’m in shambles right now. i’m not going to eat for two days. that’s how i deal with things. when things hurt, i stop eating.
aaron likes me.
so i’ve been eating a lot. a happy sierra is a fat sierra, that’s definite. C: oh well. maybe i won’t eat for a couple days. i know i can not eat for two days ! that’s good. i’ll do that soon probably. ooh. maybe we’ll go to the movies or something and i’ll spend the week prepping for that. :] oh well.
sierra + aaron. C:
aaron is confusing.
he is. giving me mixed signals and making me feel like a rollercoaster. depending on my weight (won’t check til i say peace to my mom) i’ll decide whether i want to eat or not. most likely, i won’t.
november first.
halloween was great. i had made it to 112.8 when i set out for tricks and treats, and i did eat about five mini-snickers C: so go me. actually, after that fast, i’ve been eating quite a lot. a fourth of a mini-pizza, half an omelette, and a handful of chips. loads for me. oh, and a few tacos from taco bell. saw paranormal activity with the cutest guy in the world and my best friend who slept...
October 2009
3 posts
day one, halloween fast.
haven’t eaten anything but three small pieces of teriyaki today. i’ve drank two ensures, arizona sweet tea, and menudo, the soup only. nothing food, besides the tiny bit of teriyaki. talked to marissa, but she’s not going to do anything about my starving. (: halloween plans are in the air, but either way i’ll look great. i feel great about myself too. while i think anorexia...
halloween fast.
hiya. it’s me again C: so i’ve gained from 113.8 to 114.6. not good, especially because i look like a fat prostitute in my halloween costume. hence ! the halloween fast. i am going to drink nothing but water, gum, and the occasional ensure (they’re great – food supplement drinks, but they’re 350 cals, so i only drink half of one) until halloween. i’ll be...
an introduction.
i’ve had anorexia since seventh grade. it reappeared december of ninth grade, after a particularly disastrous encounter with things such as drugs, sex, and a guy i wanted to make my world. i’m now a fourth into tenth grade, at a new school where that particular guy is enrolled, i like someone, and… yeah. (: i’m sierra. i like music tremendously. this’s for people and...